呢喃 2015

26 Dec, 2015
畫畫筆記（四十）：一年前
我想畫一幅關於去年這時日的感覺的畫，
但一年來都沒有畫出來，也沒任何頭緒可以怎樣畫，
好像拍了照片但底片一直沒有沖出來，
後來我畫了別的東西交稿。

12 Aug, 2015
食屎
要好好記住，每想到香港問題就有種每天在食屎食屎到底還要食到幾時的感覺。
就像仍清楚記得，連一個百幾蚊小焗爐都無錢買的學生時代，
每天早上從雪櫃拿出來，吃那塊又冷又濕的雞尾包那貧窮的滋味。
牢記直到植入基因。

19 Jul, 2015
畫畫筆記（卅九）：筆記本
筆記本買很多，很多用到半路就停了，證明不好用。
大小、紙質、厚薄、輕重、軟硬、顏色、格線、裝釘……
直到遇到那款筆記本，寫寫畫畫很快用完，證明好用，
就很專一只買它。

22 May, 2015
Munch
NOTHING IS SMALLNothing is small, nothing is large.
We carry worlds inside us.
A drop of blood is an entire world with
its own sun and planets.
The sea is a drop of water –
a tiny part of the body.
The primeval light is everywhere.
Crystals are born and formed.
The fire of life burns
even in the hardest stone.
We do not die.
It is the world that dies.
Death is the love-making of life.
Pain is the friend of joy.

THE SEPARATION

I give her the light summer night’s soft beauty.
On her I pour the splendor of the fading sun.
On her hair, on her face, on her white dress –
shining gold.
I place her in front of the pounding blue sea –
with the seashore’s sinuous, snakelike lines.
Thus does she go from him, who still cannot fathom it,
but who in dreams feels her departing.
Amidst blood-red flowers he stands
in the deep blue evening shadows.
How it came about he cannot grasp.
Yet even when she has vanished across the sea he feels
fine threads embedded in his heart –
which bleeds and aches like an ever-open wound.

GRAVESTONE

It had been cold for a long time.
Then suddenly it turned very mild and spring-like.
I went up to the top of the hill
and enjoyed the soft air and the sun.
The sun warmed, yet now and again
a cool breath of wind blew –
like the air from a burial chamber.
The damp earth steamed.
It smelt of rotten leaves –
and how quiet it was around me.
Then I seemed to feel how the damp earth with those rotting leaves
fermented and was filled with life –
even the naked branches.
Soon they would sprout and come alive,
and the sun would shine upon the green leaves and the flowers,
and the wind would bend them in the sultry summer.
I felt a thrill in knowing that I
would return to this earth – this always fermenting earth.
Always to be shone upon by this loving sun – alive, alive.
I would be at one with it.
And out of my rotting corpse would grow plants and trees
and grass and plants and flowers.
And the sun would warm them,
and I would be a part of them.
And nothing would perish.
That is eternity.

— Edvard Munch
(translated by Shari Gerber Nilsen)

18 May, 2015
門牌
即使變化太快，樓房以重建之名被摧毀，
仍可製作門牌，標示歷史文人故居，
樓房改了，門牌仍在。或可從塗鴉開始，或字嘜噴漆，
甚或用一樓一鳳般的塑膠門牌風格做起，
以表示對官府之輕蔑。

01 May, 2015
字眼
把「懷舊」字眼改成「傳統」，那事物就屬於你了。
懷舊是不用對它負責的，傳統卻要你負責。
（一旦使用「傳統」，就知你有無下功夫了。）傳統者，不傳無統，幾多傳統無人繼承，變成懷舊。

22 Apr, 2015
鞋
我想買一對仍是英國製造的波鞋，當自己生日禮物。
官網半價促銷兼免郵費可惜已斷碼，別的網站沒想要的顏色，或加郵費仍有猶疑。
不曉得小時候怎捨得用阿媽份糧買七百元的Air Jordan。
七百元現在算得甚麼，但曾經捱窮的基因告訴我七百元可以做好多事，為何還希罕英國製造。
卻就是沒有一雙是香港製造，
不知那條產業鏈鏈到哪裡，
不知那個食物網網食了誰。

20 Apr, 2015
之間
想要的東西，
偏偏在產品與產品之間，
沒被製造出來。

15 Apr, 2015
玉兔
月亮的玉兔
或守株等待的兔
或帶愛麗絲跳入樹洞的兔
及逃逸之逸，皆有兔

07 Apr, 2015
一句唔該
自太古到永遠，
麻煩別人的，通常不知道自己煩，
連一句唔該都沒有。

05 Apr, 2015
太空館燈口
今年電影節的好處是，你可以重新在太空館前面，在地面的燈口過馬路，不用在商場地庫和隧道兜來兜去了！
幾多年了？有無十年？真係有重光嘅感覺。

30 Mar, 2015
樓上裝修
樓上裝修，天天轟轟烈烈。

20 Mar, 2015
退休男人
幫老媽填表格，退休了職業一欄還可填「家庭主婦」，男人退休了就無身份，只能填「其它」。

11 Mar, 2015
賓周
由於「撚」字已被廣泛採用和借用，我開始覺得「賓周」已old school到變成雅言。

18 Feb, 2015
my iron lung
we’re too young to fall asleep
too cynical to speak
we are losing it
can’t you tell?– radiohead “my iron lung”

14 Feb, 2015
谷內六郎
他的畫能令你記起童年時真實的感受
好比第一次聽到水滾的鳴笛聲
或與朋友手牽手圍了一圈的感覺的確很久沒有手牽手圍個圈了，多少年？

25 Jan, 2015
急景
往時年終有種「殘年急景」之感，是甚麼又說不出所以然
不知那是世紀末情意，抑或青春荷爾蒙作祟
急景裡卻有微弱的光華千禧年至今這感覺漸漸消逝
連急景也說不上了

25 Jan, 2015
十大最憎之七
惡俗如紅底白字的banner自然還有LED招牌